The Conrad Ayala Story

My world is blue every day, not just April...

I have been unable to post much due to health and family BUT I wanted to make sure no one has forgotten to #LightTheNight to end child abuse, to sign http://www.change.org/petitions/conrad-s-law , to find a candidate to vote for that SUPPORTS The children, one who can CHANGE the laws, MAKE this nation safe for the babies once more.... I will be back soon, I will be louder than ever and I have news that will rock THE world, ROLL the stone away and LET the guilty pay. So stay tuned, Stay vigilant and never forget why we came together. God Bless you all xo MB

A public apology...

On the Blind Side...when the mom has to say the husband is right...he asks her what those words taste like in her mouth...she says "Like vinegar"...
I know how she feels...now, I do not like to be wrong. I do not like to be made a fool of nor lied to...and I most assuredly do not like bringing aid and support to a cause then finding out things are not "exactly" like they are made out to be...by whomever....
When I am wrong, I feel compelled to admit it, when I have made a mistake, I feel, as a God fearing soul, I must apologize to anyone I have hurt and humbly pray that not only the Lord will forgive me but any human my mistake touched or harmed.
With this said...and a deep gulp taken here.... I say to you all, I made a mistake with one of our Blue pages/cases. Ethan Hyatt in Oklahoma was not/is not a case the Blue Soldiers needed to be involved in. Ethan did not die from abuse, his death, although tragic, was accidental and no one should have let his death become the war it became. This is, at least, what I have come to believe as I have now viewed documents and listened, for once, to the tale from every side I think possible, including the opinion/findings of a fine officer in law enforcement (in Oklahoma), one I have trusted for years. I am a grandparent myself, I hold no ill will towards a grieving grandparent for fighting vigilantly for a precious angel, missed beyond measure... I, myself, have fought as hard for children I have never held, never kissed...so I understand.
The Blue Soldiers came together for one reason, to protect children, to save babies, to assist in the spreading of awareness, pursuing justice for each and every child abused, murdered, raped...we have not been wrong about many cases...only 2 in fact. One, we busted in GA within 2 weeks...
No one is being accused of being dishonest, hurtful or deceitful purposefully...no one is being blamed for anything lest me for not doing my homework, me...for continuing to support the cause even when it was clearly damaging the Blue reputation (because of certain accusations against Ethan's father). I have a hard head. I don't back down and I still maintain that EVEN if Ethan's father has a serious record within the sex offender scope, AND Ethan had in fact died from abuse, I would STILL fight for the child. I allowed my better judgement to be silenced as I battled my own demons, I even allowed new enemies to be formed through my support, through asking my trusted supporters & followers to campaign for arrests, charges...
I was wrong. It won't happen again. I have pondered this in my absence from FB, I have prayed, I asked for answers, I received finally what I asked for... and I am pretty upset with myself for not doing my job myself...
Mandy Simpson, I ask for your forgiveness. I am apologizing on the behalf of the Blue Soldiers...I offer my deepest sympathy for your loss and I humbly ask that you understand my only concern was for your son, Ethan...I wish I had been able to see this for what it was long ago but my eyes were on other things, my heart tied so wholly to Conrad, MerSadie, David, Daniel, Izzy, Seraphina, Lily....that I did not look at you as a possible innocent. Whatever comes of this, whatever the future holds for you and your children, I wish you the best, I have asked that all the edits of your Ethan be taken down from Blue pages and his Blue Justice page is already down. I am sorry for standing on the wrong side and I hope you can at least respect me for admitting my lack of vigilance for the truth on this case. The Blue Soldiers will not be acting in cooperation with JFE or any other group pushing for further investigation. May you find peace in the loss of your son.

Well, that's it for today....I will be publishing the definition of a Blue Soldier tomorrow. You shall be surprised...

God Bless you all xo MB

Take note...

He who passively accepts evil is as much involved in it as he who helps to perpetrate it. He who accepts evil without protesting against it is really cooperating with it.


A great man spoke those words and he probably knew at the time he would die for starting the fire... he probably knew he would give his life so that others may reap the benefits of his war....his peaceful words, his dreams, his very life was silenced because he believed he could change the world...
He did change the world... they may have cut him down but they could never stop the wave he had set forth...

What can you, as one person, do to change the world we live in? Go to change.org and just take a look at ALL the petitions going....criminal justice, child abuse, environmental issues, animal advocacy...

If you don't like the world you live in THEN DO SOMETHING about IT. Children are being beaten to death, teens shot for being in the wrong neighborhood....babies are being raped, mothers slaughtered....soldiers are going postal, teachers are torturing students, grown men are raping and killing rampantly while teens who defend themselves against monsters sit in prison... mothers are choosing men over their own flesh, grandmothers are selling their families for drugs...IS THIS A WORLD YOU ACCEPT? Personally, I don't give a rat's ass right now about gay marriage, dolphins, climate change or the damn Republican ticket...UNTIL you can show me a candidate that WILL DO SOMETHING for the CHILDREN being slaughtered in this nation...UNTIL all the other activists on warpaths AGREE that the children should COME first, UNTIL the "celebrities of this world" GET THEIR SHIT together and aid the ones without a voice...I don't wanna hear it. Either help me stop child abuse....or be gone. Thanks xo

Watch me fly...

Hello world :D

I haven't been posting here regularly but as every "follower" of this blog knows, I have been working on a better way, a simpler way, a non FB way to communicate our VOICE. I have to tell you folks that Twitter has impressed Mama...Digg is a fine source of sharing actual news, not drama...I find Pinterest to be very calming and actually enjoyable... WordPress can be linked to Twitter and thus can be shared with the masses thru TweetDeck...all of this I can do safely and without the hateraid corp getting to me. If FB did it's job at security and followed through with it's "community standards" rules, it could probably still be a great social tool. The ONLY reason my TweetDeck touches FB is because I had so many emails and texts about being missed by the blue army my voice gathered that I gave in and linked the two. Now... this doesn't mean the hater clubs of America aren't avidly stalking, its just means I don't care and I refuse to acknowledge their existence. I have now been drama free for 39 days...my family sees a change, my doctor sees a change and my angels...they gather about me daily now and I see the change. Our cause, my calling...has grown, believe it or not...we are about to launch a series of PSA's for the babies...we have our new logo and decals designed, the association is growing locally and I will proudly share the new web page and forum when it is ready (I really hate those under construction oopsies)
I no longer control the "Blue Soldiers". I consult with the ones who do, I promote within the group but I no longer desire to be the leader of anything based on FB. I am honored that there are those of you that followed because you believe in me...I am touched every time I get a message from you (honestly). I hope you will all remain supportive of the current Blue Soldier group...I pray you will follow me to the next phase...I know you will aid me in my pursuit to save each and every child we can...together.

I once announced what my past was...I once thought that my past defined me...I fell victim to the devil's games and almost became that woman. I did it because I stopped listening to the angels & I stopped letting Jesus take the wheel. I let my own anger and my own pride lead me to engage in a petty argument with an insane group of losers. I have already asked the Lord for forgiveness, I am now asking you all for the same. I let my past define who I was. This is behind me as I have found more grace than I ever thought possible in the sheer quietness I forced myself to live in. God Bless you all, please continue to fight for the babies...

Til next time... Light the Night and End Child Abuse xo

Ramblings of a rogue

SO yeah....I am apparently a Gen X sorta Mama...yet I was raised by the G.I. Generation, not by my mom but my grandparents. So I think differently maybe...So even though I have been a rebel most of my life...I still hold to certain beliefs, certain styles that are long past are still bred into me... Maybe that explains a lot...

Currently...
Rush Limbaugh? Really? WTH is up with the rampant stupidity that reigns supreme in the land of governMENt?? Urm...Santorum? Seriously? Do either of these people know it is 2012 and women vote? Smdh...
Storm victims... praying with all my might that there is no further suffering, no more lost lives...no more destruction for the areas hit... Wow :'(
The New Orleans Saints had a bounty system... Ok. You think they are the only ones? Seriously? Grown men kicking the shit out of each other for sport...and making side bets...bounties....jokes...drinking beer together after they kick the shit out of each other...for sport. It happens. Its a man's world, darlin.... either adjust your goggles or look the other way... It is a violent sport for spectators... It IS a violent sport ....oh never mind...if I have to explain, you probably wouldnt understand...
Birth control... Well, seeing as that my life leads me down a path where I see children who were probably never wanted being beaten, raped and burnt by their own kin...I think I would have to say I am ALL FOR giving any woman birth control, getting the true meaning of mother somehow pelted into weak minds and tattered souls...yes, even abortion should be offered before we allow children to be born to humans with no soul...Take it for what it's worth...it's better than them being slaughtered before they ever get the chance to become teens... smdh again...

I have found that Twitter is cool...gotta build a network but very pleasing to get to share without the blech of you know where book :D Blogging? It's liking talking to yourself...yeah... and now the Pinterestin' thingie...I kinda like visual rather than blabbity blab so I am IN... I would like very much to hear from any of you that may have new petitions floating about...email them to me for signaturage please: universalbluejustice@gmail.com

The Lord has healed a broken spirit...he has given new purpose to the now rested voice... I pray I can shout loud enough to draw the attention he seeks...I pray for his guidance, his grace and his favor...and I pray for you all... God Bless - til next time - mwah xoxo MB

Joy, disappointment and vigilance...

I am overjoyed at the Michigan news today... LIFE for Hayes, more than we expected for Baker...Rest well, Dominick, darlin...your work here is done... AND to hear King's ringing GUILTY on all 3 counts...well, hell....Michigan advocates should be proud today!! You see, all it takes is a loud voice...a steady march...a raging voice to call down the thunder...
Disappointment is watching other states drop the ball....watching some babies get no notice, no justice...no rest. Brianna...her killers should have life... Conrad...Michele....Caylee....so many cases leave us with our jaws dropped, our mouths agape like we are in the last bend of a mental breakdown... It's disheartening to see that, although we share a flag, we share a President and a Constitution....children aren't always, in each state, each county, each republic...held in the same regard. Florida, for instance, has dropped the ball so much in the past year alone, THERE should be some sort of ALERT running on every channel asking the public to do a better damn job than the CPS/DFS and to be honest, the juries down in the panhandle state must be drinking some special juice.... Don't even get me started on good ol ND either....
I despise the fact that I can't change the world faster...I am angered any time I see a new case, a new angel....a sad sentence... Sometimes I don't know what more to do than pray, on my knees, head to the ground, pray... then sometimes I get a message from one of my survivor bubbies or their family...and I know...that although it looks bleak...it seems like there is no end in sight.... you must raise up and look at the little victories.... it is hard to do this, it is hard to scream and shout for the lost...it feels like we have waited too long...losing just one is as painful as losing the many... But always rejoice when it's good news..always always always thank God when we save just one...when we get 10 more years than anyone expected...when we catch one before it's too late...those are the moments we (advocates) must cling to...hang onto like a life raft...cement into our memories as we move on to perhaps less success, slight loss....complete epic fails...because...if we save just one...if one child is left with hope...one shard of light can pierce the darkness for much longer than one would think... Follow the light...seek the truth...pierce the darkness with the laughter of one child... Hold tightly and march on...vigilance is what it takes...no matter what the obstacle, no matter what the storm...one by one...we will change the world. God Bless you all today and every day...xxx

Share Conrad's Law if you will....we need 5k for a first read in Congress and we now stand 2282 :D Good JOB sharing the past few days...I appreciate all your support -- butterfly kisses from angels will surely find their way to every single soul who helps bring this nation a reality where children come first...abusers are punished like the very worst of criminals should be... Drugs may be a real problem in this country but when you can get a more severe sentence for carrying cocaine than if you kill a defenseless child....we MUST change our priorities, tighten our belts and make a real plan that saves children!!!!
http://www.change.org/petitions/conrads-law
Make killing a child during any act of child abuse a FEDERAL charge that carries life without parole. Period. Thank you!!

Another day, another sentence...

Today, my mind is rattled with pending sentences and ongoing trials...at this moment, my prayers lie in a courtroom in Michigan...a family waiting to hear the sentences of the two charged and convicted of stealing Dominick Calhoun from this world. Time slowly moves when you are waiting...the hands of the clock seem to be slagging in nonexistent mud... I pray the gavel drops and the family's suffering is lessened as the couple walk off to prison, never to see the light of day again...I pray his memories haunt the killers, their minds never able to quite function right again. I pray for true judgement.  I pray this is the day the angels sing...

http://www.wnem.com/story/17026690/man-who-tortured-killed-dominick-calhoun-to-learn-fate (just in case you haven't followed the case)

I wonder how many days over the past year many of us have sat patiently waiting the words...impatiently twiddling thumbs while refreshing every few seconds... How many times have we been disappointed? Disgruntled? Amazed? Shocked? Hurt and scorn? How many times have we actually got to jump for joy over a fair and equal sentence? I mean...I can't jump for joy in any sentence where a child was murdered and someone is not getting life... but I can get on my knees and thank the Lord when an abuser, a baby killer, a rapist of our innocent...doesn't walk out free like the devil Casey did...

My thoughts are scrambled of late...my mind quite boggled at the lack of care this nation lends it's children...the lack of concern in the streets, the courtrooms and the halls... a lack of faith, a lack of care, a lack of community. Yes, I would still stand between an abuser and a child...I will still spread the word of need...I will always be the voice of those left with none...but I am tired of playing a fair game with an unfair opponent...Satan cheats, he lies, he harms and he fouls... and to be honest, I am tired of playing softball with the bastard... let's just say I have started training for a more applicable way to deal with him and the evil he sends to prey on our babies...

Stay strong...stay loud and most of all....stay true xxx

Small victories...

The Oklahoma Blue should be on their knees thanking the Lord today for a sentence worthy of note...yes, when you see people walking away with slaps on the wrists or less...for killing, raping and beating babies worldwide...you can claim a victory when a child lives...when 3 abusers get TIME....his "mother" was not even present and the state convicted her, lending her ten years to think on the innocence stolen...the female "sitter" who sold him is reported to have been sentenced to 20 years (which is more than our baby Conrad's killer mother received for taking his LIFE) and the devil charged with his rape is reportedly sentenced to 16 years. Not bad, Oklahoma...I KNOW we expect so much...we wish for life sentences...but take a step back and look at the horrific walk offs we see....Casey? Michele Aviles "father"? Devery Brooks? Right....so I charge YOU Blue Soldiers of Oklahoma to get up and dance a little today...know that any further judgement rests in the Lord's hand...we did our job....we made enough noise, we shouted, we prayed and yes....this IS a victory for not only Daniel but for the people who have given so much of their time and hearts to speak for a child in need. We do love you Daniel...and we are proud of you...brave little man....you will be stronger than they will ever know...

http://www.truecrimereport.com/2011/06/leana_lauck_jennifer_ragland_s.php (original story if you missed it)

We don't choose our battles carefully...we don't sit still and wait for something to happen....sometimes we completely miss the mark and we cry for days when the sentence, the charge, the end...is not enough, not nearly enough.... we may wish that these demons sit in prison forever....but they wouldn't have in any case...weep no more tears for Daniel...his life is forever changed, his little body may be forever scarred in some way....but he made it. He...made....it. And his abusers are behind bars.... for a significant amount of time. Rejoice...thank our Father....pat yourself on the back just this one time, Bam, Rosa Bean, Vada bug....take a breath.... know that you helped change the tide for Daniel...and so many more....now get back on that horse and start firing on the enemy...I may not be there on FB with you....but I am never far from you in my heart... I still fight, I still listen, I still see...and I am proud today...

All my kisses, Daniel.... OOOOOORAH <3

Denial...

The world according to me? It's in denial... when in the name of all that's holy....did a child's life become less important, of less worth than an adults? You may say I am stretching BUT no, I am not... I don't know every case, I don't know every story so my references to Conrad are not because I don't care about any other child...it's just what I know...now...Conrad was killed brutally by two adults. No one else was there...no one else had any involvement...he was a defenseless 19 month old baby that was beaten repeatedly over a period of at the least 3-4 days (most likely more) until his little body gave out and God took him home...
His murderers will be out in 18 and 23 years. His murderers...will be able to have a life again. He does not.

George Huguely beat his girlfriend to death brutally and without concern (although he was drunk and "angry")... she was a bright girl, Yeardley Love...she had a life to look forward to also... her murderer has been found guilty and recommend sentence of 26 is expected...

http://www.washingtonpost.com/sports/colleges/jury-says-former-uva-lacrosse-player-should-serve-26-years-for-exs-killing-larceny-charge/2012/02/22/gIQA6J1MUR_story.html?tid=pm_sports_pop

26 years? Now, I agree that he is a murderous freak who had some jealousy issues and a drinking problem and I pray he does get the 26 year sentence and the Judge holds tightly to his own oaths...
I am NOT saying this young woman's life is LESS important...I AM WONDERING how Conrad's was worth less. He didn't date his killer...he was born to her. He did not have alcohol in his system...he was a baby. He did not make the choice to argue with his attackers...they were his caretakers...now, he reportedly had drugs in his system but it is fairly certain he did not consume them himself...

How is his life less worthy than Yeardley's? It isn't... when will this country really decide do protect the one thing we have to look forward to in this grim deathtrap we call life? The children should be our first concern....

Jus sayin....

Somewhere over the rainbow...

Blue birds fly...

Did you grow up with that song in your head? Did you watch Wizardly Ozness every year? Did your dreams take you to lands beyond our sight? Mine did...it's where I hid from my mother. How many children do you think survive? How many do we not even know about...are getting beaten tonight? How many women will fall victim to yet another beating, another rape? How many animals will be brutally beaten perhaps to death before midnight? How many innocent lives will be stolen today....just today...by the evil walking amongst us now? Ask yourself that question every day and ask yourself what you can do about it...

Tell someone. Ask someone. Call someone. STOP someone if you must.

You must NOT let your inactions, your silence, your blindness....to allow one more child to die. It sounds horrible but look at the news...read the papers...check every social network and ask your neighbors, your coworkers and your church family -- you will indeed see that our world has changed. No longer can our children just play outside...no longer can they just go to sleepovers...no longer can women run for their health on mornings alone...no longer can we trust our neighbors to always be who they appear. I don't know about you but I fear this wind of change... it's one reason I am here now instead of a fulltime social networkedy babbling advocate... my children, my family, my health, my sanity and my faith have taken precedence... I have given so much to the angels that I have let my earthly health crumble. Now, I am doing my part still emailing, still signing, still asking wtf is happening... I just can't do it on (now called DB...don't ask :p)....  it's been a great deal harder than I thought because so many of you don't communicate elsewhere...I miss the friends I made but I also realize I didn't make nearly as many as I thought I had. It's ok... I have found so much more in the silence with my Father :)

My girls have always meant the world to me... my own life is what I would give to save them from any harm. If every single person who bore a child or had part in that process...would have that bred down deep in them like the first rule of existence (which I thought it was)... my advocating would be nil. My worry for the next murdered child would nay exist, would it? Think about it...what if everyone was as totally brutish and loud in their protection of a child? What if every single person knew that every one was listening, watching, asking, acting....what if this world took it upon themselves to save the next generation? It's a pipe dream because no one, at least not every one...gives a damn. Simple. If it doesn't touch them, it does not exist...

So yeah.... take that to the bank... look in the mirror and decide what you will do if you are ever faced with it. Like FACED with it... in the face faced with it. What would YOU do if you heard a child screaming in the house next to you? Screaming screaming screaming crying "help me" someone HELP ME...or just a tiny child screaming incessantly with no end in sight, no let up, sure pain... no guesses...would you call someone? Would you get involved? Would you knock on the door? What...would...you do? Now pray for the knowledge to know what is right and the courage to do what is right... make no mistake...if you do not...there is a good chance no one will and we will be hearing of a brand new grave, a sweet angel making that journey home to Heaven's playground... another grandparent, another daddy, another mom...someone somewhere will mourn a life they could not save. So .... what would you do? Make a pledge...to not only protect your own child but the children you come in contact with, the children who call to you....the future of our species...the children.

Peace to you all xxx

A cold world...

Today, my head hangs low as we mourn even more for the Sherry Arnold family of Sidney, MT. More news, a confession...the cold hard reality of an evil world filled with immoral men and drugs. Life means nothing...not the life of a woman, not the life of a child...men have become animals...evolution seems to be going backwards and our streets, our schools, our neighborhoods are hiding vicious animals, killers...rapists...monsters.

http://www.krtv.com/news/court-document-suspect-confessed-to-killing-sherry-arnold/

A tragic end to a horror story... God be with the Arnold family - shelter them with your love and the light of heaven itself...this woman is surely waiting in heaven for them...so sad...Rest well, Sherry...your work here is done :'(

I ask you all when the rights of the victim became of lesser importance than the accused? Baby Kate? Her "kidnapper" sits in jail...saying nothing. Baby Ayla? Sky? Aaliyah in WV? They just disappeared? Probably not... Then the cases where only one adult was in the home and a child died of injuries attributed to child abuse? Expert witnesses? New exams? Urm...it's pretty easy to understand, isn't it? Someone over 175 pounds hit, struck, threw, beat or otherwise angrily abused a child possibly only 1/10 of their size until they died. One adult...one murdered child...what more evidence does one need? Two men on crack, one woman murdered. One drunk man, one murdered woman and two murdered children...
These seem like simple open and close cases...but not in this land of "justice"....nope. You can bring a pound of weed into some states and get more time than if you rape and murder a toddler...good job America...where the hell is the change in THAT?? Come on, step up.....find a candidate that gives a shit about abused babies, raped toddlers and murdered children...our current excuse for leadership is worried about obese kids...maybe the next one will try to push the envelope and save them HOPING we can be given the chance to feed them only nutritious organics veggies...k? Good deal... now I don't say this much anymore but am hoping to rouse some soldiers back to the front lines...get those boots back ON...just because the General has retired DOES NOT mean the damn war is over....

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORAH BLUE xxx

http://www.krtv.com/news/court-document-suspect-confessed-to-killing-sherry-arnold/

Where is the love?

When did this nation become so cold and uncaring? WHEN did we, as the people, forget common courtesy, empathy and community? If you peruse the internet AT ALL, if you look at your local news...you will see we just don't give a rat's ass about each other...we couldn't....or babies like Brianna, Conrad, Lily & Juliette would be growing by leaps and bounds...Dominick, Rylee, Israel would be tossing footballs and girls like Nubia, Breeann, Aliahna would be learning to dance, sing...glittering their nails and laughing. But they aren't...they are all far beyond this world now...their last moments spent crying in pain...and no one did anything. No one saved them. No one swooped in and saved them. No one knew? No one saw anything? No one? There are no excuses for the murder of a child...none. We can fight all we want for lost angels, we can share petitions, we can scream and shout for justice...but when does that change? When does this nation SAVE them before we bury them? Before they lose their vision, their hearing...before their little bodies are damaged...when do we take back the future and STOP this madness? How? Where do we start? We start by doing the right thing...we start by paying attention, we start by reporting...do NOT look the other way just once...do NOT ignore the bruises just once...DO NOT make excuses for family members, friends and neighbors...DO NOT let your silence take one life...please call the police if you suspect abuse. Follow up with CPS/DFS immediately. Call again. Stop it if you have to...somewhere there is a child crying right now...for help...screaming for someone to help... I pray I hear that call...I pray the Lord gives me the strength and the conviction to always do the right thing. What will you do today for a child? What will you do?


http://www.lcsun-news.com/las_cruces-news/ci_19963371

http://www.radaronline.com/exclusives/2012/01/child-killer-ryan-brunn-suicide-georgia-prison

http://www.radaronline.com/exclusives/2012/01/child-killer-ryan-brunn-suicide-georgia-prison

http://www.detroitnews.com/article/20120215/METRO03/202150391/1361/Jury-selection-resumes-for-woman-in-death-of-stepdaughter--2

Today, my prayers lie in a courtroom in Michigan...jury selection for sweet Lily's killer is ongoing and I ask the Lord for a competent and impartial jury...JUSTICE for LILY!! God Bless Lauren & her family this day and always....

Angelversary notions...

Conrad Alex Ayala died one year ago today, at 1:42 a.m. His life stolen by abusive hands and hateful hearts...his last moment spent as his "mother" signed to have him removed from life support. Same "mother" who took part in beating a 19 month old to death...
My life changed that day... a fire tore through my soul and I felt angels tugging at my heart... I took a pledge to do all I could for that bruised and battered baby boy the second I saw his face. I have fought, I have screamed, I have cried, I have marched and I have cried until I can barely see. My voice was a beacon, as Conrad's own voice could no longer be heard... many came to answer the call and I am proud to call them family, I am proud to call them friend, I am honored to call them fellow advocate. There are those that were awake at his moment of passing, crying for him...there are those in countries thousands of miles from any physical notion of this angel...that cried today for him...there are children across this nation saving Valentine's hearts for a baby in heaven, there are children wearing his buttons & bracelets today of all days...there are mothers holding their sons just a little closer this morning, grandfathers lingering at the door just a tad longer than usual, watching their own sweethearts waiting for the bus...and there are advocates shouting in front of their computers everywhere... I know this because the Lord brought them to me and Conrad for a reason...to change the world in his name. I am a hard hitter. I am a mouthy rebel. I am a mother & a grandmother who loves her babies more than life itself...I am a Christian, I am a child of God...I am an advocate and I am a human... I may bring the rain more than most, I may call the very thunder from the skies and the demons from hell when I speak...I may piss you off and you may hate me...but when I bring the light the angels lend me...when I speak from the bottom of my heart and I ask for prayer...when I get down on my knees and lay my head upon the ground seeking God's favor and his pure grace to cover me...I am blessed beyond your comprehension and your words of hate and doubt can not touch me... My brand of love is hard to find, when I give it, I give it wholly and without reservation...when I say I am going to do something, I am going to do it, be damned if anyone but me and Jesus agree it must be done...I am going to do it. I don't want your sympathy, I don't want your undying devotion and blind servitude...all I ever wanted was an army of people who wanted what I wanted...who thought that children were worth fighting for...worth risking it all for...worth suffering for...that's all I ever wanted. I apologize today for any hurt I may have caused anyone in my vigilant march...I apologize if any posting, noting, commenting or shared listing caused one single solitary soul any grief. I have suffered as well...not from the sight of abused children or murdered babies as much as the pure evil that lingers on my every word and stalks every thought. My Father in heaven surely did know that the devil would come calling...and as always, the Lord gave me sight and my angels lent me courage... I believe if FB is where the devil travels to get me to interact with him...I just log off and stay off. If I believe alcohol is the devil, I stay out of bars.... it's a simple process actually :D
Father, forgive us of our sins as we forgive those who have trespassed against us...
I don't know why I always end up either being most loved or most hated of the year... I don't really to set out to accomplish either. What I did set out to do one year ago was bury a child like a prince...and with your help, I did that. His last resting place, his headstone and his memory are preserved forever... we did that, you and I...doesn't that feel good down deep in your soul? Does it feel good to know that his name rings from each end of this planet because we made it so? Does it warm a heavy heart today...to know that even investigators and counsel in Minot say we did a good job and the sentence, albeit lax...is certainly more than COULD have happened had we not harped? Does it cause you to tremble when you think of MerSadie and her future without abuse because we came together and aided her through Conrad? David's abuser no longer has the opportunity to abuse those in her care because of his mommy and... our voices!! 
Many tears will fall today.... but when you mourn his passing, when you look up at the sky and weep...take a moment to thank him for what he has done from his spot up there in heaven's playground...make sure you tell him he is that hero...he is that fireman giving his life for others, he is that astronaut discovering new solar systems and he is that soldier saving the next generation. Make sure you remember why it is you are even reading an old biker chick's words from wherever you are today...
That reason is Conrad. Pure and simple...his voice rings from the heavens today...further than we ever imagined....his light shines on us from every cloud... I thank each one of you that thought of him today...for each one of you that will stand at his grave and weep...for each one of you lighting a candle in your flat, your trailer, your house, boat or villa...for every one of you that have said a prayer, spent a dollar, sent a text -- you are my rocks and I pray for each of you to know how very much you have amazed me this past year...
God loves you and so do I xxx


http://www.change.org/petitions/conrads-law almost to 2000...make it happen today?

Happy Angelversary my sweet prince... never forgotten xxx

Please also remember Brianna's birthday is today, may her party in heaven be grand...and please say a prayer for the Furneaux family as the jury selection begins for Lily's JUSTICE -- the angels will surely be there helping select that perfect jury!!

Make your voice count today...share our boy with the world, several times over...today is HIS day xxx

Social Networking

As you may all know, I have left the world of FB...I don't miss the drama BUT I surely miss my little nest of friends. I am available on yahoo messenger @ mamabev@ymail.com and by immediate email @ universalbluejustice@gmail.com -- I am trying to figure out Twitter @SureDeliverance

My voice may be resting but my fight is still raging for the babies...my emails go out, my calls get dialed and my prayers, most of all, my prayers lie with the abused, the scared and the lonely...nothing can change what Conrad has done in this life or the next... I charge you all to continue the battle, march on against the evil that is still preying on our future...make your voice LOUD enough to be heard from the heavens xxx That's all I ask xxx

The beginning...

One year ago today, at right about this hour, I answered a call from a close friend...that call forever changed my world...it was the first time I would hear Conrad's name, the first thought I had of a dying child far removed from my world yet calling out to me. The first step would be taken in the morning...a small group put together, praying for a battered child, asking the courts that his abusers not be allowed bail. Such sadness...such change has come in a year's time...how many friends we have made, how many friends we have lost. I never knew how such an act could cause such controversy, could bring such hate...but today, I don't care much about hate, don't feel much like addressing the way life has gone...I don't quite have the energy to do much of anything today lest mourn a lost soul...think on a child I never knew in this life...wrap my arms around my own babies tonight before they sleep...tomorrow, I know the tears will come...yes, and then the night will creep over this lost soldier and my dreams will fill of what could have been, not what is to come...I am stuck right now in the circle of what ifs and how could theys...I pray you all peace tonight, I wish you all well in your journeys...I am forever changed by baby boy, I am eternally grateful God gave me the chance to do something good, something selfless, just because it was the right thing to do...my heart aches for that little boy tonight (as every day and night)...it feels fresh, it feels numb & I just don't know where my Lord would have me go now... Please share Conrad's Law, wake this nation up to the reality of child abuse! xxx

One week from today...

One week from today, Conrad will celebrate his first angelversary in heaven's playground with all his angel friends... This year has brought many tears, much sorrow and an unfathomable amount of blessing and grace... My calling has taken a toll on this soul, my voice is hoarse and my body weary... I have fought many battles, marched with a beautiful group of women and a couple of men...shouted from rooftops, been assaulted by masked minion, lit quite a few fires and truly aided a few children across this nation. My social media skills lacked decency and elegance so I made enemies...wow, who would have thunk it? ON FB? Noooo :p But yes, I leave the pretend world of FB to shout from a different hill, one where I say what I mean without the flaggalotomus brigade. The internet means nothing to me, news stations mean nothing to me, FB means nothing to me. The children that are being beaten to death literally hourly, daily, weekly, monthly....are what matters to me. Aliahna, Aaliyah, Ame, Bentley, Breeann, Brionna, Brianna...Conrad, Caylee, Christian, Christina, David, DLila, Dominick, Daniel, Ethan, Elizabeth, Izzy, Jacob, Jesshye, Juliette... Kyle, Lily...Mersadie, Mirah Grace, Matthew...the Lowe twins...Sophia, Seraphina, Trevor... Devin...October, Kiera, Darby, baby Lisa, baby Kate, Tyler...
That's just the names on the tip of my tongue and swiftly thrown onto the screen...my mind isn't quite what it was just one year ago...my sleep is not gentle...my dreams are not sweet...my prayers were once general, now they carry purpose. My days meld together and my thoughts run the full circle of eye an for an eye and no mercy for the guilty when it comes to abused and murdered children. Children. Little tiny babies, toddlers, preschoolers....7 year olds...10 year olds... little children being killed. Beaten to death. Burned. Boiled. Eaten. 9 Month old babies being raped. 5 month old babies being tossed in the air for fun... 3 year old children being thrown against walls... 19 month olds being killed for peeing in the floor. This is not the world I wanted to raise my children and granchildren in. This is not the world the Lord made...this is the one he will shatter with his might when we go too far into the pit. We are headed swiftly, without hesitation into the pit. If I had my way, I would be kicking in doors and throat punching abusers before they had another chance to harm a child. They would go directly to jail, do not pass go, do not collect soap and honey buns, for the rest of their life...simple. I believe those that steal the life of a child during the commission of child abuse, torture and or rape...should be put to death swiftly and without reservation. Simple. I believe those that stand by and do nothing, should be given no lenience, no mercy either....as the child surely did not see such mercy...did not receive a lenient sentence...they lie in the ground, cold...their smiling faces now shining from heaven alone...in memories of the ones left behind...those that would have given their own life before allowing such a tragic end to such short lives. Now there are those of you that want to go about advocating in a gentle, polite, elegant, politically correct fashion. I applaud you for that. There are those of you that like to shout a little but remain ever polite with your tone. I applaud you for that. That's what I call the MLK and JFK approach...and it works...beautifully...and again, I applaud you and offer my respect and admiration. I yell. I march. I curse. I annoy. I light fires, I stoke fires and I throttle the damn choke until someone pays attention. I prefer the McArthur or Malcolm X approach. You do Sitting Bull, I do Crazy Horse... My voice may not please you, my method may not be your cup of tea...but what if our results are the same? What if...through your peaceful sitins and floral parades...and my war chants and thunder storm approach met in the middle...and we brought such force down on the nation's lawmakers, the Judges, the DA's...the lax CPS/DFS world...what if, just like Harley Davidson and the Marlboro Man....we changed the world? Wouldn't it be worth marching in with your ribbons and pretty dresses AFTER I light a fire and get the shit heads outta the way? Come on, don't hate the player, hate the game. Call me Blue, Call me Mama, call me a bitch or a dictator... just recognize my voice, my fierce nature...came to your world because of one angel...one little boy leaving this world, gave his flame to me...and I lit your fires with it....now you take those torches and you change the damn world in his name...you make people listen...stand proudly and know that you have butterfly kisses waiting for you in heaven when you meet your maker...
I don't care what  you think about me... I want you to sign Conrad's Law at change.org -- My days of playing head games with flakes are over, my days of arguing with faceless cretans are done...my voice can be heard from many corners of this nation...my soldiers still move among you, my words still haunt the guilty and my prayers still fly high above for every single child who has ever been abused...
I just do it on my terms now...please email me any links, any campaigns you are a part of...I will sign and I will share with my most trusted advisors... May God bring you peace...may your sleep be gentle and may your voice be just a little louder tomorrow xxx Break the Silence xxx

Get thee behind me Satan...

The devil has came calling again...more pages to stop us, more hate to slow us down. The evil that is portrayed on Bitten by J4C is an attempt by a pathetic individual to raise her own ego. I was at the point of giving up and just doing my work from outside of FB but an angel came to my door today and has changed my outlook.
The devil's word is a sickness and now, I have the cure. Please continue to support any Blue Soldiers and/or Blue Justice pages...please continue to work the campaigns and please, above all else, always, always report child abuse if you witness it, suspect it or hear it .... your voice may be the one to save a child. I may not be seen, my dear advocates, but I am always around. NOW go save some babies!!!!!

Thursday

Small victories can be claimed today but the war against child abuse rages on. You can choose to sit idly by and do nothing or you can step up to the plate for the kids. No child deserves to be beaten...NO child should go to bed scared or hungry...in fear of abusive hands or lecherous minds... This nation is losing a battle we CAN not afford to lose!! I will be posting links in the coming days for petitions, email campaigns and cases across the country....cases YOU can make a difference ON! Please always report abuse when you see or hear it, PLEASE stand for the babies...if you don't, who will?? Peace til next time -- O & O

Today is a new day...today is the day I move MY voice to a better place. I will be sharing the links usually shared on FB, I will be working blue magic from another place, more serious, more NO CONTACT than FB and just more secure. In just 13 days, we will celebrate Conrad Ayala's first angelversary and I charge you all TO SIGN his petition at change.org (search Conrad's Law). This is in a work in progress and basically a test of epic proportions :D Cya soon!!