My life changed that day... a fire tore through my soul and I felt angels tugging at my heart... I took a pledge to do all I could for that bruised and battered baby boy the second I saw his face. I have fought, I have screamed, I have cried, I have marched and I have cried until I can barely see. My voice was a beacon, as Conrad's own voice could no longer be heard... many came to answer the call and I am proud to call them family, I am proud to call them friend, I am honored to call them fellow advocate. There are those that were awake at his moment of passing, crying for him...there are those in countries thousands of miles from any physical notion of this angel...that cried today for him...there are children across this nation saving Valentine's hearts for a baby in heaven, there are children wearing his buttons & bracelets today of all days...there are mothers holding their sons just a little closer this morning, grandfathers lingering at the door just a tad longer than usual, watching their own sweethearts waiting for the bus...and there are advocates shouting in front of their computers everywhere... I know this because the Lord brought them to me and Conrad for a reason...to change the world in his name. I am a hard hitter. I am a mouthy rebel. I am a mother & a grandmother who loves her babies more than life itself...I am a Christian, I am a child of God...I am an advocate and I am a human... I may bring the rain more than most, I may call the very thunder from the skies and the demons from hell when I speak...I may piss you off and you may hate me...but when I bring the light the angels lend me...when I speak from the bottom of my heart and I ask for prayer...when I get down on my knees and lay my head upon the ground seeking God's favor and his pure grace to cover me...I am blessed beyond your comprehension and your words of hate and doubt can not touch me... My brand of love is hard to find, when I give it, I give it wholly and without reservation...when I say I am going to do something, I am going to do it, be damned if anyone but me and Jesus agree it must be done...I am going to do it. I don't want your sympathy, I don't want your undying devotion and blind servitude...all I ever wanted was an army of people who wanted what I wanted...who thought that children were worth fighting for...worth risking it all for...worth suffering for...that's all I ever wanted. I apologize today for any hurt I may have caused anyone in my vigilant march...I apologize if any posting, noting, commenting or shared listing caused one single solitary soul any grief. I have suffered as well...not from the sight of abused children or murdered babies as much as the pure evil that lingers on my every word and stalks every thought. My Father in heaven surely did know that the devil would come calling...and as always, the Lord gave me sight and my angels lent me courage... I believe if FB is where the devil travels to get me to interact with him...I just log off and stay off. If I believe alcohol is the devil, I stay out of bars.... it's a simple process actually :D
Father, forgive us of our sins as we forgive those who have trespassed against us...
I don't know why I always end up either being most loved or most hated of the year... I don't really to set out to accomplish either. What I did set out to do one year ago was bury a child like a prince...and with your help, I did that. His last resting place, his headstone and his memory are preserved forever... we did that, you and I...doesn't that feel good down deep in your soul? Does it feel good to know that his name rings from each end of this planet because we made it so? Does it warm a heavy heart today...to know that even investigators and counsel in Minot say we did a good job and the sentence, albeit lax...is certainly more than COULD have happened had we not harped? Does it cause you to tremble when you think of MerSadie and her future without abuse because we came together and aided her through Conrad? David's abuser no longer has the opportunity to abuse those in her care because of his mommy and... our voices!!
Many tears will fall today.... but when you mourn his passing, when you look up at the sky and weep...take a moment to thank him for what he has done from his spot up there in heaven's playground...make sure you tell him he is that hero...he is that fireman giving his life for others, he is that astronaut discovering new solar systems and he is that soldier saving the next generation. Make sure you remember why it is you are even reading an old biker chick's words from wherever you are today...
That reason is Conrad. Pure and simple...his voice rings from the heavens today...further than we ever imagined....his light shines on us from every cloud... I thank each one of you that thought of him today...for each one of you that will stand at his grave and weep...for each one of you lighting a candle in your flat, your trailer, your house, boat or villa...for every one of you that have said a prayer, spent a dollar, sent a text -- you are my rocks and I pray for each of you to know how very much you have amazed me this past year...
God loves you and so do I xxx
http://www.change.org/petitions/conrads-law almost to 2000...make it happen today?
Happy Angelversary my sweet prince... never forgotten xxx
Please also remember Brianna's birthday is today, may her party in heaven be grand...and please say a prayer for the Furneaux family as the jury selection begins for Lily's JUSTICE -- the angels will surely be there helping select that perfect jury!!
Make your voice count today...share our boy with the world, several times over...today is HIS day xxx
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