The beginning...

One year ago today, at right about this hour, I answered a call from a close friend...that call forever changed my world...it was the first time I would hear Conrad's name, the first thought I had of a dying child far removed from my world yet calling out to me. The first step would be taken in the morning...a small group put together, praying for a battered child, asking the courts that his abusers not be allowed bail. Such sadness...such change has come in a year's time...how many friends we have made, how many friends we have lost. I never knew how such an act could cause such controversy, could bring such hate...but today, I don't care much about hate, don't feel much like addressing the way life has gone...I don't quite have the energy to do much of anything today lest mourn a lost soul...think on a child I never knew in this life...wrap my arms around my own babies tonight before they sleep...tomorrow, I know the tears will come...yes, and then the night will creep over this lost soldier and my dreams will fill of what could have been, not what is to come...I am stuck right now in the circle of what ifs and how could theys...I pray you all peace tonight, I wish you all well in your journeys...I am forever changed by baby boy, I am eternally grateful God gave me the chance to do something good, something selfless, just because it was the right thing to do...my heart aches for that little boy tonight (as every day and night)...it feels fresh, it feels numb & I just don't know where my Lord would have me go now... Please share Conrad's Law, wake this nation up to the reality of child abuse! xxx